Im looking at these tablets, must be 30 of em, I just feel so tired, jaded and utterly fucking pointless. I desperately want to take them right now. I should really just do it, I really really cant see the point in hanging on. I guess i could go get a bottle, knock myself out...but fuck then I have live with getting shouted at cause it wont kill me, and the money Ive spent on it. Im sick of everything. Nothing excites me Nothing motivates me There is nothing to get me through the days anymore I have nothing to live for Im hanging on by the bearest of threads and I really dont know why. I need to make a decision.