I need to cut

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by CursedSoul, Dec 4, 2006.

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  1. CursedSoul

    CursedSoul Active Member

    I try everyday all the time to find something to make me happy, I am successful some days. Like today, I got some very good grades. I felt like I was on the top of the world... Then a few simple words now I sit here staring at my bloody knife... I hate this, I don't want to feel anything anymore ! I just want a quick death. I haven't been able to relax for weeks, sleepless nights...

    Just ending it all is so tempting, I don't give a fuck about anyone besides my girlfriend... I love her so much, but because of my problems I am too fucking afraid to show it to anyone besides her... I know I am just going to end up hurting her... I don't want to feel like this anymore, just so sad for the simplest things, it triggers me... I have to cut... deeper and deeper, more blood the better. The red river of pleasure...

    I often cry myself to sleep, crying so hard that I just want to go get my knife and end my pathetic no-worth life... My girlfriend.., she'll get over me...

    I am only 15, soon 16 and I had it very bad for six years, six years of pain, six years of being suicidal. I just don't want to be on this fucking planet anymore ! KILL ME !
  2. scared_child

    scared_child Account Closed

    hey, I know how you feel. But, then I found something to live for. And I hope you will too. PM me some time and we can talk, ok, hun?
  3. BrokenPieces

    BrokenPieces Well-Known Member

    hun... we all go through this. its a stage we all go through, and i hope you get through it...

    we are here for you, use us please as your life line...
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