Omg can I please just die already? Wtf am I still doing here? this has been one of the worst weeks of my life and there is no sign that things are gonna turn around anytime soon or ever, I just need to die already!!! Why is it so fucking hard to kill yourself, I dont wanna fucking be here!!!! Fuck this fucking shit!!! Every fucking relationship I ever have in my life always just ends up turning to shit and I end up being alone in the end with a broken heart, I just can't take it.....I have no one in this world, I always seem to fuck things up some how, this is the last straw, I'm sick of fucking up and losing the people I care about, enough is enough, I need to die, its better for everyone! Well....I doubt I can get any sleep tonight, but maybe I should at least try, cuz there's always a chance that I won't wake up.....ahhhhh i guess i can only dream.