i need change now. something extreme. even if it means i walk out the door in a random direction and never return. the cycle is consuming me and has destroyed my self esteem and any sense of self worth. when i am working a useless job being spat on by all i am the loweest form of life, and that i cannot accept. i cannot accept slavery and peonage. i cannot accept being nothing its to hard to make anything of myself now. i have no opportunity and am burnt out with life. My parents will be mad if i quit my job and will kick me out so i have to go be a bum because i cant keep doing this. this inaction is driving me mad i need somthing to change now i have to do something extreme i need an extreme change. What can i do that is extreme i need my life to change now. Im sick of enduring it.