i have nothing to live for. life is a pointless prosession of pain after pain. i'm tired and hollow. i need to sleep but no one will let me. the one person i loved has left me forever and i don't ever want to go through this pain again. so i'm going to fade away. i'm going to let it consume me until there is nothing left. i'd like to jump off a building, but i'm too scared to go out the house. i'd cut my wrists, but i don't want anyone to find my body like that... so i'll starve myself, let my body become as hollow as my mind. its going to be slow. but oh god is it worth it. maybe if i can get the courage to go out the house tomorrow i can find a nice building.