So i feel rlly depressed and sad at the moment for mutliple reasons that i wont go into detail with but i've had a lot of suicidal thoughts lately and i need hel on a) how to get rid of them and b) to talk to someone. I have fanatsized about committing suicide just to get the pain to stop and to see who would actually care. I have self-harmed in various ways in the past and now old habits are resurfacing so i just need some advice on everything please?