I feel really alone. Sitting here, listening to Fleetwood Mac's 'Dreams'. That song is one of the two things that can make me cry. Not too long ago, I<methods> myself. (My last post was when Kankuro posted "By the time you read this".) I was planning to go with him. I didnt know that he was gonna do..<methods> etc...i had know idea. I was planning to <methods> myself...and I did. All I remember was <methods>the banister..and then nothing for like a split second..then I was waking up in the hospital. <methods> I am so disappointed that I failed. For that single moment in darkness, I felt ok. I felt peace...like a huge burden had been lifted from my aching back. I know I need to talk to some people hear...there are good people here and I know that. Talking is just hard for me.....it always has been. I know one day I will try again...I can feel approaching. I just dont know what to do anymore other than to try again.