I have been feeling so desperate lately. Thinking that my life is meaningless. I suffer from severe apathy. I am very low on emotions and it is bothering myself and others. I became mentally ill since 2006 and it was very worse when it first started. Pupils were unfamiliar with my illness, I was appearing to look sad/unhappy/grumpy/angry and it frustrated them. Since that time, I rarely get happy. I can't be happy when every time I go out, people show an unhappy facial expression. They look as if I make them feel uncomfortable with my appearance. Drivers start speeding up as the speed of a racing car from the moment they see me. All these reactions of people make me feel bad. I feel like people don't like me. I feel like people can't stand the way I look. People are so intolerant. I just need something to weep it all out, then I will feel relieved.