I cannot continue to have a life like this. What else is going to go wrong? I am an accountant yet I am in bankruptcy(really). I have four dogs; one just bit the other and I have no idea how I am going to pay the vet to get the dog fixed up. My wife and I are in the midst of a very bad marriage. I have been diagnosed with major depression. I don't have any friends to talk to about my problems. I have no contact with anyone in my family. I am not very good at my job yet I have been in my profession for a long time. My kids are wonderful; are doing well in school but have had to deal with parents who are at each other's throats on a daily basis. I think about suicide on a regular basis but the pain and anguish (and guilt) that I would cause my kids keeps me from taking it any further than just thinking about it. I go to sleep at night in the hopes that I will not wake up the next morning; however I don't think you can wish for your own demise and expect to get the desired result. I go to work, laugh, put on a happy face, try to do my job and then go home at night. I hate the weekends because it gives me more time to think about my problems. I keep thinking that it can't get any worse yet it always does. I am really afraid to do anyhing to harm myself. It's just that I feel I am at my breaking point. I am in my late 40's and am totally ruined in just about all aspects of life. I know this is just another rant from another very troubled person but at least I feel a little better seeing it in print.