About 5 weeks ago I took A LOT of <mod edit - acy - methods> I kept it down for about.. 45 minutes to an hour. It was terrible. Swallowing, literally, handfulls of pills at one time over and over again until they were all gone. Then just waiting. Then the throwing up, and my whole body was shaking, I was sweating but I wasn't cold, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't focus, ?I just saw flashes of light if I looked at something for more than 2 seconds without moving my eyes. The shaking lasted about 4-5 days, but it got more and more mild. The eye site lasted about 2-3 days. I didn't go to the hospital. I've overdosed before, in the 7th grade, with <mod edit - acy - methods>. I just got up and was stiff and a few days later I was okay. It was terrible. When I laid in bed all I could think the first few days was "Why cant I just die. I'm a terrible person." and my boyfriend would call daily, so the vibrating on my desk kept ringing in my head every time I would try to sleep. I didn't use the bathroom for probably three days, or eat or drink. It was terrible. I still feel guilty for it. I haven't told anyone except my boyfriend who lives 2k miles away, and a friend who lives 1k miles away. I don't think I ever will. The guilt and hate is by far the worst part of my attempt.