i thought i could make it, i thought i could get thru the pain but i am not sure now, i still got another 6-7 weeks living with my ex til house sold and now i find our friends are more interested in helping her move into her new house,helping her little problems rather than trying to help me save my life like they promised. even my ex thinks i am ok now i have sorted somewhere to live. how can ppl be so fucking blind, how can they stand by and watch me fall. i feel so angry, so let down and disapointed by those who i trusted and now i find myself truely alone in the real world with no one to turn to. i am stuck in a facade of life feeling invisible and ignored by everyone who i love and care about and while they go about there lives blanking me out i am suffering and slowly getting worse. but hey, in 6-7 weeks i will have a house on my own and cash in the bank so i must be ok and cured. thats what they think i reckon i am depressed, i have thoughts of suicide and now sh yet i am all alone surrounded by fake ppl. fuck em!