I feel for my own best interests,that I have to stay away from this site when I feel truly suicidal. I feel the only time it is safe to come here is if I have enough inner strength to help cope during a petty confrontation. I also feel that if I do run into trouble on this site that I am expected to deal with it in a calm and collected way. I can't do that.I don't have tools to respond in a methodical and coldly efficient manner towards drama. Some comments from the mods have mentally scarred me. Instead of just handing down a judgment they felt the need to tell me that I am "rude",that I was "hurting people" and that it was inappropriate for me to feel that my own situation deserved to be handled with self deprecating/black humor. My abuser used to tell me this. Not the language of support is it?But considering this was all done in private I can only imagine what deeply personal observations some of you have had to take in while in crisis...and being punished for it. I am a member of a support forum who has been made aware by one moderator that they don't have the time for my problems because they have better things to do. I wouldn't be surprised if that,or something as equally "self worth" destroying has been said to other forum users....in private. A lot of us are being made to feel like bad people at the moment. We didn't come here to be made to feel that way. But it's happening.