I excercise, lift weights and if Im hungy I eat blueberries and drink around 18 cups of green tea to fill me up and burn calories. I'm only happy when I'm starving I don't understand! My family and boyfriend are worried but I resent them for that. When they cook for me I can't always get rid of it and it chips away and my happiness when I have to eat. Eating actually makes me go into a rage. I hate it. My personality is more vibrant and chatty when I don't eat because I am happy I have eaten under what I should everyday, I feel more confident and more in control of my life. I just don't get this.