It's as if I no longer connect to myself. That used to be my favorite thing in the world -- to be alone with my thoughts. And now I dread the idea. I feel less cognitive, less honest, less mentally efficient. I don't know how, or where to start. I feel pangs of social anxiety, I have anger issues, and I externally lash out far more than I previously did. I need to connect to myself again, and I have little idea how to do so.