just thought i should say sorry to everyone who was in chat earier. i wasnt quite with it. i was in pain and a bit delherious (probably not spelt right) i shouldnt have been talking about it on there in that state. id hurt myself pretty bad and just wanted to end it all. i called the helpline and im in a better frame of mind now. not been to the hospital or anything because the wounds have stopped bleeding now and ive cleaned and dresses them. think i better lay off the absinthe for a while.