These thoughts arent going to go away and it seems like there is no hope for the future or to get help. I can no longer be here anymore, Ill wait another month to stick it through, I dont want to be here next year. This whole semester has been hell for me. Im not even comfortable in my own skin. I hate myself and I feel like a failure. Ive been failing all my test for the past months and its not making me feel any better. I was diagnosed with anxiety and after finding out about it, life is so much worse. Before when I wasnt aware of it, I just thought I was shy or in my shell and different. Now I think Im crazy. Just today I passed a house down my block, the door slammed and I jumped like a mad woman. I cant take it anymore, the counselors say they will see me when they are ready, yet they havent called me back in weeks. My school is crap and I just hate going there. The first semester was tolerable but now I cant bare to get up in the morning. My parents forced me into college to do the major they expect me to do. Im not even excited about school or life because my whole life is just school. i go to school then come back home. I avoid everyone and I just hate here. I dont belong here.