I'm so tired. I've been sick for so long. I just can't stop thinking about hurting myself, doing something. I just want out. So desperately. I'm so broken. My body doesn't work. I throw up, I have tremors, I pass out, I'm always in pain. You don't understand what it's like. People grow old and die without ever suffering through things like this. And no one understands what its like. I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to feel anymore. I want to die. I want to kill myself. I want to die.