Twilight,
Sorry to hear that you had a bad experience with a suicide hotline. Generally, the only thing that they want to do is to get you to create a safety plan if you already have a plan. Sometimes, you can get the right person who is willing to listen to you and talk to you no matter how long that takes. But those are rare and hard to find. Generally, they are only willing to spend so much time with you and then move onto the next person. If you want to talk to someone this is the better place to do it. There are people from all over so all time zones are pretty much covered. I hope that you can find someone to talk to that will listen and help you with what is going on with you.
KittyKatt