All my life, or at least since age 13, I've seen suicide as the ultimate right act, the thing I most need to do because I'm defective. Last night I realized something: when a person is depressed or thinks a certain way, they see suicide as the solution. If they were focused on physical health, they might see working out as the solution. Suicide only SEEMS like the right solution for a person whose thinking is distorted by depression, self-hatred, etc. When I am in the midst of depressive thoughts, those thoughts tell me suicide is the answer. There is NO WAY I can logically know if suicide will indeed give me the relief I seek or the punishment I deserve. Right? No one knows what happens at death, so how can I be so certain suicide is the answer? I can't be! My faulty thinking is simply telling me that it is the answer. In reality, death from suicide may result in a number of different things, and they may not be an improvement. We just don't know. Depressive thoughts produce suicide as a solution. We are better off trying to deal with the depressive thoughts; when they are gone, they no longer produce a suicide solution.