Here I have the possibility to do something fun, and now I'm panicking over having to do it. I agreed to do a show that a co-worker is putting on. And it sounds fun. I'd love to do it. Really I would. But now I have anxiety attacks over it. I don't know what else to do. I can't just up and cancel- I KNOW everyone will say I chickened out and while it's true I don't needa have people at work saying that to me. I'm sitting here wanting to cry while trying to decide what to do. Do I go for it, freak out and wish I was dead while doing it. Or do I chicken out and run away from it? >_< I have NO ONE to talk to about it. My family will just tell me that I needa grow up and grow a backbone. My friends will do their "Aw I bet you would be perfect!" and never really help me. And my co-workers are the ones I'm trying to keep from letting know. :ambivalence: I am just so freakin torn!