I guess this is it.... I want to die. Everything I see is something I can use for suicide. Something I can use that will help go through with the suicide. OD would be nice,theres tons of pills in my house, or Other methods that would hopefully be more sucessful. Hopefully I won't chicken out like I always, & hopefully I can just go through with my method & die, & just be done with life. I don't want to try, wait for things to get better, I want to be gone, really,really,really bad.