hi to anyone who bothers to read this, its my first post here anyway. ive been feeling depressed for 2 years now, especially in the winters. I've taken several tests but my parents dont care enough to think of depression as an actual illness they keep calling me crazy. im all alone. my best friend left school because she didnt like it here. my other friends dont give a fuck about me at all. Im not smart not pretty not talented. I see no future for myself, the only one i can depend on is this guy friend of mine who im in love with but he doesnt like me back. my parents keep fighting theyre constantly shouting and screaming and it hurts and i started cutting. my thigh is all cut up and its disgusting and i promised my guy friend i wouldnt but i dont want to stay here anymore it hurts too much Please help me. i wish i was happy and content but im not and i probably never will be it would be easier to end it but im scared of dying. im so fucking pathetic honestly. Cant live cant die. i dont deserve anything.