Happy day, I learned that I now have the green flag to kill myself. You see on another forum someone posted a bunch of Suicide Documentaries. Funny thing is that I am out of the age range those videos are meant for. Oh that is a happy day for me. Because now I am allowed to die and no one will care, literally. Because I am not a youthful human anymore. So when I die people will just shrug their shoulders and fill in the necessary data points. Further more these documentaries have shown me that I am not your typical suicidal person anyway. All the people in these documentaries have people they can trust and reach out too, in real life. Only the truly worthless, like myself have no one and nothing. Maybe that is one reason I refuse to ge therapy. Because it just revalidates how empty and meaningless I am. The only way I can get people to care about me, in real life, is to pay them. What better reason to prove I am human trash? Granted watching these has made my days slow down. Now it is going to seem like even longer before my cat dies. Now that I am in the official statistic range I can die without any need to worry.