I am the point in my life, where I feel I cant do it anymore...I just want to be no more. I am so numb, I cant even cry. All is hopeless..I want so bad to end all this, but when I project on how much my family will cry and suffer without me, I just keep postponing everything..I used to make and sell soap(liquid), but now I dont want to go near the chemical shop, as am afraid of what I would do with tjem..now I have no income..employment is hard to come by..doing house chores is becoming harder..I just want to die. Why would depression and anxiety ever exist? I really dont know what I did to deserve all this.