I just want to give up on life. I know we all only have one life on earth and most want to enjoy it....but there is just nothing in it for me. nothing to enjoy..only things that hurt. for so long ive just had this welling type of viod-like pain in my chest and it kills me. i dont have anyone to lean on, i never did. my old elementary school teachers used to call me "the dark cloud" and i dont really blame them. i walk around in my own shadow. the only time i feel any bit of relief from the world is when i'm reading or writing. or daydreaming. in other words just in my own world. but lately even when there my mind wonders back to my past and that feeling in my chest comes back full force. i don't want to die but i don't want to live either. right now i really just need a friend if its not to much to ask. just someone to talk to. anyone.