I really want to do it

[anarulesmenow]

I dread life, I really wish I was dead right now and tbh I don't see a way forward.I don't see a future and I have felt so empty and so lonely for so long that I don't want to go on anymore.I have depression, an eating disorder(Ednos),Anxiety and Inferiority disorders,suicidal tendencies and what I think is Obsessive Compulsive disorder.I have attempted suicide before and ended up in hospital and right now I feel like going through with it again.I just feel so shit right now and I have the right amount of pills to do it.
Please, is there anyone out there who can talk to me about this because I am so confused right now.
My msn is [email protected]

 

[fromthatshow]

Hey. I can't relate to all of that but I do have depression and severe anxiety.
Also, I think anyone with suicidal thoughts feels lonely and without a future. I never make plans past like a week or so, or at least never think about them actually happening. My friend asked me to go to a concert in November and I hesitated because in the back of my head I was like, no way I'll still be alive then, even though I know I probably will be.
What happened last time you went to the hospital? They didn't help you out with meds or a therapist or anything? Are you currently seeing someone?
I'm here if you need to talk. :pm:
:hug:

 

[anarulesmenow]

Nah they didnt give me meds and my old counsellor turned up(who had discharged me 3 weeks before because I wasnt very good at talking about stuff) and she asked me some questions and that was it.
Tbh I dont really think counsellors work but I know I need some form of help

 

[Petal]

Im here if you need to talk :hug:

 

[Stranger1]

Hello,
I have been fighting this go round for about six weeks now. I usually keep control of it by using my coping skills. The suicidal thoughts are with me everyday! I learned to set them aside and replace them with something I have done.
For instance I helped a certain person with advice and it made a difference to her. She sent me a PM thanking me. Now that is a major positive thought and it feels good!!
You really need to get back into therapy. If the one you had been seeing hasn't helped then find a new one. I went thru three before I found Gina. She is great and will tell you flat out if you don't like what she is talking about, there is the door and don't let it hit you in the ass on your way out!! She really cares about her clients but she won't take no shit from you!!:chopper:!!