My life has fell to pieces recently. My Dad got cancer, I got rejected by a girl i love so so much, not only did I get rejected she just completely ignored me which is worse. But I was thinking to myself this morning, I still do boxing, thats my life, I live for this game, so maybe things arent so bad. So just to check this morning I rang the Amateur boxing association to see if boxing with bi polar disorder, which I have is ok. Im not allowed any fights. I cant even compete in sport. I have nothing left to live for. Boxing is all that has been on my mind for 5 years, now im not even allowed to compete. I so badly want to end my life.