I am a spiritual guy, I suppose. I believe in God and the Devil. I dont know how I could be a praise band drummer for 3 years and not believe in those things. In 2008 when my alcoholism, came to a head, and my wife left me and filed for divorce, (we have since reunited), that Christmas Day I spent alone in a studio apartment, crying harder than I had ever cried in my life. In 2009 after we got back together, that Christmas, my wife hit a pedestrian with her car. In 2010 on Christmas Eve, my father died. This year, 2011 so far, my wife's car was repoed, my pc died, and we got notice that a certified letter is coming to my wife today. Probably a collection agency filing lawsuit against us. And we have 12 days to go before Christmas. I dont know why, but from a spiritual perspective, it seems like the enemy really tries to get me and my family, this time of year. So that is why I dread Christmas....I grow tired of fighting with the enemy.