I'm nineteen years old, my mother treats me like I'm twelve. She's threatened to hit me a few times, although she only did it once. I've got two friends who I rarely see, and even they see me as a joke. Everyone that I bother to talk to doesn't show any form of respect toward me, but I feel that I don't deserve it anyway. I've never had a girlfriend, although I have liked two girls... They appeared to like me back, but I was too much of a coward to actually ask either of them out. Of course, the only girl I've finally managed to confess my love to is a girl online, who I've seen pictures of and have heard her voice to confirm she's a girl, not just some creepy man. She's about the only good thing in my life, and I know how pathetic that is. She once said that it would be better for both of us if we no longer spoke, but decided against it. I play games to distract myself from my crappy reality, but I can't stay on them all the time... I get yelled at if I do stay on for too long. So yeah... I honestly can't think of anyone more pathetic than myself. I have to walk everywhere because I never got around to taking my driving test, but I honestly can't picture myself driving anyway. I've got to go to school now... I'll check on this topic later, I guess. I'm not sure what I'm thinking posting this, but it felt a little good to get this all out... Another distraction is the internet, I guess.