Huh, hello to all. My first post here if anyone has time to read. Anyway... I'm 23y-o at the moment and see absolutely nothing in life to be happy about. I have finished studies in uni, but the career opportunities in that area don't attract me at all. I'm quite emotional and sensitive and value the importance of empathic people around me. I can't stand physical or "simple jobs" (or like I call them - conveyer) at all, I get emotionally massively depressed quite quickly and have vowed never to experience these jobs again. Among more specialized stuff I haven't managed to get anywhere meaningful at the moment, including volunteer work abroad. I'm already hating writing all kinds of letters and filling questionnaires endlessly, I really feel I can't do it any more. Isn't there a simpler solution out? I haven't had a girlfriend for a long time (5 yrs) and feel like I'm going to be lonely forever. I may call them or ask to go out (like hiking, which I personally enjoy a lot), but the reactions have always been rather cold so far. At the moment I'm forced to live at home and feel like I'm going to be dependant on parents forever. I don't get on at all especially with dad - his ability of empathy seems very low. It's just massively depressing to live on here for years and not getting out and improving anywhere. One radical idea is to randomly go to a faraway state, but I have barely any money. Besides this the prospect of sleeping outside in cold and/or suffering from the attacks of mosquitos is barely appealing. The best I have managed to do recently is to volunteer here and there a bit, like telephone service LifeLine - well, at least I understand those people, who call there, extremely well! Even though I have learnt that it is overwhelmingly difficult to realistically help - that's what I am experiencing on myself too of course. But these activities don't help me to become self-dependent or find an income in any way. When I asked about working opportunities in an orphanage I was told that I don't have an education in this field in addition to that due to recession they have no vacancies anyway. So in short, what is missing? Love, ability to be self-dependant, a job that I really love, dreams that I'd like to fulfill (like travelling around the world and discovering different cultures). Well, everything really. And I can't see a way out, certainly not a quick one. Besides this handling the mental condition is gradually becoming more difficult, which further stagnates any possible activities.