I've got nothing anchoring me now except for my two kids, and I don't think they're enough. They are the only reason I feel bad about the feelings I have (no, I wouldn't hurt them). In the past I've thought about suicide off and on, but now I really am not afraid of death any more. This is not a cry for help. I just feel lonely, and for whatever time I'm here, I don't want to feel that way any more.