i seriously think of ending my life

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Zozeebo, Sep 26, 2015.

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  1. Zozeebo

    Zozeebo Active Member

    Hi, i'm new here and i have had suicide thoughts for over a year i tried telling my best friend but she thinks that i'm joking i really dunno what to do.. Sometimes i think about the best way to end my life​
    I want to tell my doctor or someone specialist but so i'm so scared
    Ps: i had an appointement with my doctor today and when he asked me how i'm feeling i said i'm fine (i wanted to tell him the truth but i didn't say anything) please help
     
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hello zozeebo and welcome to the forum. I think the best idea is to tell your doctor how you are feeling no matter how hard it may be, it will be worth it. What is it that you are scared of? If you are scared they will ''lock you up'' like some people think then you are wrong. So many people suffer with depression and your doctor will have heard it all before, I wish you the best of luck in seeking help, you already made the first step by joining here:)
     
  3. Zozeebo

    Zozeebo Active Member

    I think that the fact that he knows me for so long (since i was a baby) and plus he is my father's childhood friend that scares me hell.. I know he is a good person and he does respect my Privacy but i dunno really
     
  4. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hmmmm. Yes, I see the issue. Is there another doctor you can see? Maybe a psychiatrist who can diagnose you? The doctor having a personal connection to you would bug me too. I hope you can reach out in some way :)
     
  5. Freya

    Freya Loves SF Staff Member ADMIN

    Hi Zozeebo - welcome to SF. I understand how hard it is to talk about suicidal thoughts - or any 'bad' thoughts with a doctor. Can you see a different GP? Are there others at the practice who don't know you so well? What I find helps is to write down everything i want to say and hand it over - that way I don't have to worry about finding the words when I am physically in front of someone.
     
  6. Zozeebo

    Zozeebo Active Member

    Even if i can i don't think that my parents will let me cause i really don't want my parents to know about my struggle so if i ask them if i can go to a psychiatrist they will ask me for the reason.. and i really wanna avoid that boring long conversation that will never end ever ever​
     
  7. Zozeebo

    Zozeebo Active Member

    Freya that's a really good idea u just gave me i will try and write down all what i'm feeling from now tilbis the next appointement or the next time he comes to our house thx
     
  8. Freya

    Freya Loves SF Staff Member ADMIN

    No problem :) let us know how it goes!
     
  9. Zozeebo

    Zozeebo Active Member

    I will :)
     
  10. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I enjoyed our short conversation in chat! I realise you are young so that makes it a little harder to get the help you want regarding confidentiality. If you want to see the doctor, it's totally your choice, if you don't you can try self help, use coping mechanisms. Write down how you are feeling and burn it, all the thoughts burned!! Or draw a picture of someone you hate or thoughts you hate and put it on the bed and beat it, those are healthy releases. If you're constantly thinking of suicide I would suggest seeing the doctor. Highly recoimmend it :)
     
  11. Zozeebo

    Zozeebo Active Member

    Thx for listening to my boring probs petal i enjoyed talking to u too and again thx for the support :)
     
  12. Cicada 3301

    Cicada 3301 Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Thanks for coming to chat, was really nice to talk to you and get to know you a bit. Hopefully now you can get some support here and good luck for your next doctor's appointment. You are entitled to ask the doctor what the confidentialty rules are regarding anything you say and if you do not feel comfortable with the rules then you don't have to say anything to the doc. It would be great if you can open up to him though because he will be in a position to help you lots. Good luck whatever you choose and hope to see u in chat again soon :)
     
  13. Zozeebo

    Zozeebo Active Member

    It was amazing meeting u too cicada i had an amazing time talking to people who understands me and what i'm handling :)
     
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