My marriage/relationship of 7 years ended recently and Im just not strong enough to go on. I remember in the wedding vows they said marry the person you cant live without and that was so true for me. Despite what he has done I loved him unconditionally. In mid Nov last year I made him lunch and sat him down to talk about fixing some of our issues, he just said he didnt want to try anymore and he had all of these thoughts, he needed time alone. I was upset but after a couple of weeks I moved into another bedroom, I still got upset with him and fought because I didnt want to split, I began to find things that indicated he was having an affair but when confronted he denied everything and continued to say he needed time alone so I gave him time alone believing he was thinking about our future instead he was just nuturing his relationship with a girl at work. I moved in with my parents because he didnt have anywhere to go, I should have kicked him out. Now I discover that over the past months she has been taking care of him and living the life I wanted with him. One of my issues was that he was lazy and didnt take an active role in our life, I was like his mother and he has admitted that he wants a mum replacement. His new girlfriend came along when times were tough and started telling him he was great and doing things for him. I wanted him to do a workout to make him better for the future and she was just giving him candy. How could I compete he just took the easy route and now I have lost him. I think I am already dead inside, all of my security and happiness is gone, I have no appetite and I cant sleep, I have no reason to get up in the morning and I long so much to share some good times with him again. Just before I moved out of our house I was so close to killing myself, I was in the car in the garage and I had the exhaust connected - but what stopped me was the fact that at this stage I didnt think he had already replaced me now I know he has and it hurts so much. My friends and family try and help but there is nothing they can do - I just want my life back and I cant.