So last night I really tried to do it. I know some of you showed support in the other forum, but it really was just too much, and you can't understand what it is like for me. Even as I was sitting on the computer I could feel their hatred, and the whole family broke down into madness while I ran upstairs. I was locked in the bathroom, and just sat there staring at the wall for so long. I got in the shower, and turned it on with my clothes on; the medicine cabinate was on the opposite side. I guess I just broke completely. I stood, opened a random bottle, and took one, then another. I took 5 of them before I dropped the bottle and collapsed, crying. I feel so worthless. I don't know what I took, but it did nothing. I just went to bed and woke up. I can't even kill myself right. I just want to die. I don't even know why I am here, but I guess you are listening unlike the rest of the world, if you really are listening... I can't tell.