I should be dead

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by Seamus, Sep 17, 2007.

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  1. Seamus

    Seamus Member

    So last night I really tried to do it.

    I know some of you showed support in the other forum, but it really was just too much, and you can't understand what it is like for me.

    Even as I was sitting on the computer I could feel their hatred, and the whole family broke down into madness while I ran upstairs.

    I was locked in the bathroom, and just sat there staring at the wall for so long.

    I got in the shower, and turned it on with my clothes on; the medicine cabinate was on the opposite side.

    I guess I just broke completely. I stood, opened a random bottle, and took one, then another. I took 5 of them before I dropped the bottle and collapsed, crying.

    I feel so worthless. I don't know what I took, but it did nothing. I just went to bed and woke up. I can't even kill myself right.

    I just want to die. I don't even know why I am here, but I guess you are listening unlike the rest of the world, if you really are listening... I can't tell.
  2. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    Hi there :hug:

    We are listening :) ..

    Sounds like you're having a hard time with your family at the moment...
    D'you want to tell us anymore as to what's making you feel suicidal?

    We're always here if you want to talk, we are listening :)
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