...but I'm not. I was fired from a job a month ago. Didn't think it was fair. Got put on an impossible project with unrealistic goals, and I couldn't make them. I sent resumes, and I lucky enough to get interviews, but only two offers. One is a really crappy job, and the other was contingent on a background check. My credit is not stellar either. This afternoon, I go to orientation for the crap job for a few hours. I'm taking the job because I really need the money. My husband works, but doesn't make nearly enough to keep things going. Not sure I will get any unemployment benefits since things have been sent to an arbitrator. I will know in another couple of weeks. However, I can do this job, and I will do my best, but I feel like a total loser. I know that I'm lucky to get a job. I have my health and friends (who I cant seem to reach out to), and I'm aware that so many in this forum have been through traumas so worse than me. Still I feel bad. Tomorrow, some of my friends are meeting for a Christmas dinner. Not sure if I want to go. I don't have much money, and I really don't wish to hear how fabulous their lives are or about their fabulous trips or what fabulous trinkets their husbands brought them. Actually, I did get a call from the other job, and I'm too afraid to listen to the message. Maybe later. I'm such a coward. Anyway, so glad I can vent here. I've never been a real happy person, and the last few months have been tough. This forum is the only place where I feel that I can express myself.