This is about the best thing that I could do for myself right now. Today my Dad told me "you should get shot." I guess I should. It hurts knowing that even my own family thinks so. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like as though some days are great, but then there are days that it hurts. No matter what I do, my parents blame me for everything. It hurts. It hurts more because I know its true. I can't be their perfect child. I can't get perfect grades, I don't have any talent, I'm not even that smart. They think I am smarter than I actually am, and I don't even know why. Maybe that's why they constantly get dissapointed with me. I'm too scared to die, but its too hard to live. I feel like I'm suffocating on my own failure. I don't know what to do anymore. No matter what I do, its not good enough. No matter what I say, its not worth enough. I wish I could just be in another place, anywhere but here.