After everything my uncle put me through i shouldnt still love and care about him.. but i do.. and i wish i didint.. if i could take back that one sentance i said before he killed himself he wouldnt have ,mod edit-gentlelady-methods> i wish i could forgive him for what he did to me... and i honestly wish he would forgive me for saying that... i know im not the one in the wrong but i still care so much and maybe i think if id thought about what i was doing.. i should never have told him and he would have paid the price for what he did and not walked away scott free while im left to deal with this the rest of my life. Everyone who knows keeps telling me to hate him... i should hate him for the years of abuse... but i dont i just cant.. what the hell is wrong with me? to still love someone after they put me in my own personal hell that i have to deal with by myself each and everytime its always there never sleeping. why cant i just hate him... and be glad that he decided to kill himself? by doing that he stopped everything... everything but my memory.