I've wanted to kill myself since 8th grade. I'm becoming a senior in high school. I don't know why I haven't done it yet. It's on and off. Tonight I really want to do it, though. I really want to no longer exist. I don't want to worry about work, school, people, etc. I just want everything gone. I hate myself. I don't know how I could even do it. I guess that's what keeps setting me back. I don't know why exactly I'm writing this. Just a vent, I guess.