I sit here...

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Lauru, Jul 30, 2010.

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  1. Lauru

    Lauru Well-Known Member

    downing a bottle of cheap alcohol. Am I going to take an OD of my meds as well? I don't know yet. I figure I might as well get a head start and at least drink. I can make up my mind after I'm done drinking whether or not I take an OD of my meds. If I do stay alive, I hope my partner doesn;t find out, because she'll leave me, for good. Right now, I don;t know. Everything feels hopeless, and I just want to stop and get off this merry go round.

    I know you'll try to convince me of why I should live, Just give it a chance, it will get better. Well it might get better but then it will just get bad again. I don't know how many more "bads" I have left in me without killing myself. Right now, I guess I just don't care.
     
  2. Soul of a Dragon

    Soul of a Dragon Well-Known Member

    Nah! come on don't do it yet. Go buy a banana first then come back read the forum.

    Edit: I just ate a banana XD
    It was epic!
     
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  3. Lauru

    Lauru Well-Known Member

    I don't know, I am pretty drunk right now, I drank some alcohol and took some of my seroquel, not enough to kill, but enough to get me loopy. I just want the pain to end and I don't know how to make that happen.
     
  4. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    You're only numbing the pain. You shouldn't put yourself through more than you're already going through. I hope you find a healthier way to cope. Good luck. :)
     
  5. Lauru

    Lauru Well-Known Member

    Thanks, I know this is wrong I just can;t seem to help myself. I did call a hotline and my T, so we will see.
     
  6. Soul of a Dragon

    Soul of a Dragon Well-Known Member

    Glad to hear that :)
     
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