So this weekend I am attending NDK, all on my own. My roommate was not sure if he wanted to come or not. So I figured that I would just see if he remembered the con or not. Anyway enough of that nonsense. Here I am at the convention all by myself. I figured maybe things would be different this year. I am finding that they are very much the same, probably worse. I am still as anti-social as ever. I find myself hiding in my hotel room as much as I can, when there are no panels going on. I find myself avoiding eye contact with people. I find myself not even asking if I can take people's picture. I think this might be a sign that I am just a failure as a social human being. That I will never be social enough to make friends or lovers. I mean I am in an element and a group of people who get me. Yet I find myself treating them like the people I know at work. I am just a waste and should probably give up. Maybe I am just feeling sorry for myself... maybe I am just trying to throw myself into a deep depression I don't know. All I do know is I should not be this depressed at an anime convention. Especially since I seemed to have escaped my roommate.