Ok...so Monday the um, er, wife tells me that my son is in a recital at his school on Tuesday. He is a 5th grader and he is in a choir. The recital was actually a dress rehearsal for a contest the kids are having this upcoming Saturday. So...being the good alcoholic that I am (not able to remember things) I called last night when I got home from work, to my wife's house just to double check on the time. I talked to my daughter, and she said that she had some good news for me. She also said she wouldnt tell me over the phone, and that I had to wait until I got to their place. Well....my mind IMMEDIATELY starts thinking, could it be possible? Is my wife going to cancel the divorce and try to make this thing work? I reminded myself to dare not let that dream come into my head. Yet as I drove over to their house, and then as I sat thru the recital, I kept wondering. Yet nobody was talking like that, let alone my wife. I didnt want to bring up what the good news was, while I was with them, because IF it was that my wife was wanting to get back together, I wanted to make sure I gave her all the space she needed for that. So when I got back home, I waited like an hour, and then called back over there. What was the good news? My daughter met a kid that is related to my nephews. STUPID!!! My mind...is so stupid. Why in the hell would I think that ONE DAY after we went to divorce court, that she would have changed her mind. Why after 6 months of going thru this crap do I still even care. Yep....I still need a lot of work, mentally that is.