I'm not gonna go in depth, but the last two years after I've developed schizophrenia i've been through hell. The feeling of emotional flatness was just too much. The only thing I feel apart from that is anxiety. So I had come with the perfect way to end my life. I would go into my mom's (who's a vet) briefcase and steal the <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>. It was supossed to be quick and painless. When I'm about to retrieve the drug with the syringe, the medicine bottle slipped, fell to the ground and broke. I feel so frustated. I am too afraid to <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>, I wouldn't want to torture my family with that image. I'm not a native speaker, there might be some mistakes.