I know a lot of you on here realize that I've been in pretty bad shape as of late but I'm not sure if you realize why. I guess it can start out in my childhood where I was raised without my father around ever. I was abused physically and emotionally for most of my childhood. Nowadays I have 2 kids one of which haven't seen in 3 years, not by my choice but because his mother disappeared on me. When I think about this I worry that my son thinks of me as I think of my own father... the type of father that doesn't care about his son. My other kid I live with along with my girlfriend (the mother of my daughter) Lately I feel as if I have failed them, I couldn't afford to pay all the bills so we had to move in with my girlfriends grandfather. I couldn't even support my family. I'm just incredibly worthless. I'm just a nuisance to all those around me. I can't be in groups of people because my anxiety gets so bad so I'm forced to miss all of my girlfriends family functions so they all think that I feel I am too good for them. which is definitley not it. I don't want to put anybody through the burden of being in my prescence. Nobody should have to even endure a minute of being around me. I'm just a worthless, lazy, good for nothing failure. I fail at everything I do. I would go on further but I'm sure this is even too much.