OK. Rewind back 5 years. I (self edit-obviously cannot say methods). I had just reported a rape. I was losing coping mechanisms, I should have died but no I awoke from the coma I was in for a reason. Maybe I survived so I can be here and help others in the same way, either way I should have died medically, I was on life support. I feel bad for what I put my family through but back to the point, I survived for a reason, one day I will figure out what that reason was. It makes sense to me that I survived to help others in the same predicament, I will find the reason one day! Remember hope is always there no matter how bad you are feeling.