i think about it all the time. suicide. why live in such a world. i am a woman and i dont want marriage or children. but that means i cant have love either according to THEM. it means i will only have poverty according to THEM. I am not attractive therefore i dont deserve afterall nothing else matters about me does it according to THEM. but more, it means i will be FORCED one way or another no man loves, they just use us until they are bored or we get "too fat" and then they throw us away, or worse they stay wanting us to be mommy thousands of years of human atrocity rape, religion all so some idiots dont have to wash the $hit stains out of their own underwear but i am supposed to stay and be violated over and over for what? how am i SUPPOSED to feel?