It's getting to be that time. Winter will soon be upon us, and the unresolved issues of my parents will continue to haunt me. She will be asking and demanding more of me, than I can give, seeing as how I can't do anything until at least Jan 1. And even then it will be extremely difficult at best. I havent talked to her in a long time now. She has stopped calling me. I think she knows she is on her own. In the meantime, I know I dont want to die, but when faced with an insurmountable problem that will rise up before me, there may be no other way. I keep my faith though. And I will pray more on this. Because the only one that can assist with all of this is, Him. And if I should be forunate to be blessed with another miracle, I just hope my mind is concious and clear enough to recognize it. Still being plagued with a cough that I have had since July. I am also have other physical issues now that are in play, that seem to indicate that I am truly falling apart. I have days when I wish I had never moved back home with my family. I get zero support from my wife with regards to my music. And while my son thinks it's cool that his dad plays drums, he wont come and see me play. The only one who did was my daughter, and even she has stopped going to church. We fight over money issues most times. She gets upset at me when I get stressed with my money. Well a 260.00 cell phone bill and a 370.00 cable tv, internet and landline phone bill, will do it. I look at myself in the mirror and I am a disgusting fatbody. And I still sin with regards to porn. But...I haven't drank. Will start that sooner than later, I suppose. So yep...time to start on that letter.