I'll try and keep this short and simple, I was abused when I was 12. I got pregnant when I was 14, had a miscarriage caused by an OD (is what I believe). After that I couldn't face going to school, I was getting bullied every single day, by pupils and teachers. Pupils bullied me for money and alcohol because my mum owns a pub and teachers used to call me gullible naive and said I was on another planet(when I was not even in the class). So after that I refused to leave my house for years, never left my house not even once, for about 5 years. Now life is horrible. My boyfriend is constantly sick, we can never go anywhere or do anything. My life revolves around whether he has pain medication or not, if he doesn't he won't get out of bed. I don't want to go on living like this. I'm sick and tired of it, and last night I started to feel really suicidal. I feel so useless, worthless, I don't even have the energy to clean my apartment, my mum has to come in and do it for me. I feel so disgusted with myself right now. I don't know what to do. And we never ever have sex because he's always in pain. Also, I have a college interview on the 27th but I don't think I'll get in because I'm stupid.