I noticed since 2003 I think I may have actually "died" any not realized it openly... I feel as if my emotions just simply went out the window. I no longer feel sadness... or anger... or happiness. I can't cry no matter how hard I try. I can't get angry. When I try it feels so... fake. So fake to the point where nobody would take me seriously. Happiness is hard to really discern since it's so lost out there with my other "feelings". Anybody else ever feel dead already? It's like my soul just disappeared due to so many years of depression and I don't think I could ever find it again.