Hello all. I turned 40 recently and have com out here to LA to build a new life with a new job,etc. The problem is, as soon as I got here, I started suffering from what I thought were allergies. It turns out (after giving up my dog, moving three times in 9 months, seeing loads of MDs and specialists) that I have developed an acute sensitivity to chemicals, so acute that I am its dabilitating at this point. No doctor knows what to do or really seems to care. I have constant headaches and sinus pressure that never leaves me. Miserable cannot begin to describe this hell. I have not slept for 10 months. The pressure inside of my head effects everything. I am alone and my friends and family have pretty much given up on me as going through psychological/ emotional issues. The psychological/ emotional issues are the result of the pain, not the cause. Doen't matter now anyways. I'm out of false hopes, stuck in this situation and have never felt surer about killing myself. Even <Mod Edit - Acy - methods> feels good (getting rid of the pain) . None of the medicines work any more. the only relief I get is when I dive up to the mountains, high above the pollution that is most likely the cause. It is there, in the mountains where I plan <Mod Edit - Acy - methods> today. It is a beautiful day and I am really at peace with this idea. I feel badly for my family and friends but I can no longer appeal to them for anyting. Wish me luck!