Is there something wrong with me that I don't know about? For the past years I've been struggling with abuse, self acceptance, bullying, loss of my most closed loved ones, etc. and I've noticed that during the times when my life is more peaceful I feel like I should be sad and disgusted at myself. For example, I could be out with my friends having a great time but then I hear this voices in my head telling me that I don't deserve it or I just feel sad for no reason and I end up ruining my day. I don't know what is wrong with me, I think I like feeling like trash... it's like I feel comfortable that way. And how can I get out of something I like?